The day she met you...

The scars on her arm,

They tell of how-

He brought her harm.

With every I love you,

Brought a new slap,

Brough a new cut.

She gave up on magic,

Never thought fairytales came true,

Until the day she met you.

She thought you were Mr. Right,

You seemed so perfect-

The way you held her tight,

But, then she realized how she felt,

-How much she really cared,

So she got scared and distanced you.

She gave up on magic,

Never thought fairytales came true,

Until the day she met you.

She knew it was too good to be true,

She knew what you really wanted,

-What you were really after,

Yet she still fell for you,

Hoping to hear, ‘I love you, too’,

She knew it was too good to be true.

She gave up on magic,

Never thought fairytales came true,

Until the day she met you.

She is finally feeling happy again,

She’s feeling like her self again,

You made the difference to her,

She’s think about love,

Just needed to know you were the one,

And now you have her heart.

She gave up on magic,

Never thought fairytales came true,

Until the day she met you.

The scars on her arm,

They tell of how-

He brought her harm.

Every I love you,

Brought a new slap,

A new cut.

She gave up on magic,

Never thought fairytales came true,

Until the day she met you.

my new super poem

Dedicated to someone very special but you will never know just how much
You don’t love me when I’m awake,
Not even asleep, in your dreams,
So why should I care?Why not cut and let the pain go away?
Why keep on dreaming a dream that has no end?
Do you wanna keep me in this dark hole?Is that where I belong? Where I am suppose to stay?
You mind can’t be changed with a conversation,
A letter, hug, and kiss are of no use to you,
I can’t make you love me,
But the more I realize it,
The harder I try,
If you fall for me can I escape the hole?
I searched into your soul,
Longing to be the girl,
You run to with your problems,
But I look in the mirror,
And realize I will forever be stuck here
Because the girl you want is pretty,
And the scars make me ugly.
I look through the mirror and I can see you,
But when you look through the mirror,
You see the scars I have created,
I wanna throw my heart to you.
So you can see it…
Really see it for the first time,
But all you see is the girl on your side of the mirror,
The girl you love because she appears to be everything,Not broken and hurting like me.

Christmas Survey

CHRISTMAS SURVEY
1. Have you been naughty or nice this year? I would like to say nice but that would be lying...so I guess both
2. What do you want most for Christmas? to be happy and be with friends and family
3. Did or do you believe in Father Christmas? I believe in God, does that count
4. What is your favorite food at Christmas? Um...I'm not sure...guess I'll have to say Green Bean Casserole
5. Have you started your Christmas shopping yet? No, I'm so lame! I put it off till last minute
6. Have you finished your Christmas shopping yet? see above
7. What is your favorite Christmas song? Mary Did You Know and Christmas Shoes
8. What is your favorite Christmas movie? 12 Dogs of Christmas
9. What is your best memory of Christmas? I think all of them are, how do you choose just one?
10. What do you look forward to most at Christmas? Being with friends and family
11. What are you doing for Christmas this year? Going to Cheney
12. Who do you want to kiss under the mistletoe?...There is this guy...
13. What kind of Christmas tree do you have? Depends who does the picking....if it's my dad it's a Charlie Brown Christmas Tree, if it's my mom it's nice but not Full
14. Do you take part in a secret santa? Sometimes haven't for a while
15. Do you go to any Christmas parties? we usually go down to Colfax and it's kinda like a party but Ma'amie and Papa said NO this year, so I want everyone to come to our house but probably won't happen
16. Have you ever had a white Christmas? Well, let's see....Cheney...what'd'ya think?
17. How early do you wake up on Christmas morning? When I wake up
18. Do you still get a stocking? I don't know, I'll tell ya after Christmas, I did last year
19. How many Christmas cards do you normally send out? Yeah, when I have them. I have to buy some when I do my shopping
20. What is your Christmas wish? Like I said, Well, there is this guy...

Top 5 for myspace

Rules
• Don’t change your myspace top 5.
• fill the people in below.
• answer the questions truthfully.
Number 1: marmie
Number 2: annie
Number 3: tone'
Number 4: Ginger
Number 5: Jenn
Have you ever danced with 2? Haha!! We swing dance all the time!!
Where did you meet number 2? on the bus I guess...she was Nicole's friend and I use to think she was really annoying and she use to think I'm a bitch...Now she KNOWS I am a bitch lol
Have you ever kissed number 1?'course that's my mom
Has 1 been to your house?um...actually it's her house...But, she been to the house I live at now...does that count?
Have you ever gone shopping with 3?:Nope
Have you ever met 5's family? yeah
Do you know 1's middle name ? Sue
Have you ever eaten anything in front of 3? Yeah, in Langauge Arts Junior year
Have you ever hated number 4 ?Nope
Have you ever fought with number 2 ? Yeah
When's the last time you talked to 5 in person ? The Monday after Thanksgiving...whatever the date was
Have you ever done something embarrassing in front of 1 ?Yes, all the time, that is why she is called Marmie
Are any of your top 5 family members?Yes
Has anyone in your top 5 seen you cry?yes
Have you ever done something dangerous with number 4?No
Have you ever slept in the same bed as number 2? yes
Would 1 and 3 make a good couple?No, my marmie is married...and I am inlove with Tone' so NO
are you dating anybody on your top five?no, but I wish I was dating the only guy on my top 5
Has 5 ever bought you something really special/expensive?Special yes...it's called a book
Has 4 ever helped you out?I'm not sure
do you ever feel loved when 5 hugs you?Always
Will 1-5 repost this?I don't know

When Did You Fall In Love With Me...By Chris Rice

I Love this song!!! I wish a certain guy was like this to me...*hint hint* Incase you ever read it.
You’re all smiles and silly conversation As if this sunny day came just for you You twist your hair, you smile and you turn your eyes away C’mon, tell me what’s right with you Now it dawns on me probably everybody’s talkin’ And there’s something here I’m supposed to realize ‘Cause your secret’s out, and the universe laughs at it’s joke on me I just caught it in your eyes, it’s a beautiful surprise Chorus: When did you fall in love with me? Was it out of the blue ‘Cause I swear I never knew it When did you let your heart run free? Have you been waiting long? When did you fall in love with me? When did you fall in love? Make your way over here, sit down by this fool, and let’s rewind C’mon, let’s go back and replay all our scenes You can point out the hints, the clues, the twists and the smiles this time All the ones that slipped by me I bet my face is red, and you can hear my heart poundin’ Well I guess it don’t matter now that I realize ‘Cause baby I missed it then, but I can surely see you now Right there before my eyes You’re my beautiful surprise Chorus: Was it at the coffee shop Or that morning at the bus stop When you almost slipped, and I caught your hand Or the time we built the snowman The day at the beach, sandy and warm Or the night with the scary thunderstorm I never saw the signs Now we’ve got to make up for lost time And I can tell now by the way that you’re looking at me I’d better finish this song so my lips will be free Have you been waiting long, when did you fall in love I kept you waiting so long, when did you fall Have you been waiting long When did you fall in love with me When did you fall in love?

So far in '06

1. Have you had any relationships this year?yeah 2. Have you had your birthday? yeah 3. Have you been to church? yeah 4. Been on a diet?yeah and between that and working for Don I lost a pant size 5. Pulled an all nighter? yep 6. Drank Starbucks? Nope 7. Go to Homecoming? yeah 8. Went Camping? yeah on Annie's property...good times, good time 9. Failed a class for the semester? No thank God 10. Bought something? yeah 11. Met someone special? yeah *sigh* 12. Been out of state? yeah for the MONTANA Dog shows 13. Gone Snowboarding? noe (THIS YEAR) 1.) Been in the hospital? yeah, it's called attempted suicide 2.) Had a boyfriend or girlfriend that told you they loved you? yeah but the question is did they mean in, in which the answer is no 3.) Were you on television? nope 4.) Loaned out money? yeah and people never seem to pay me back 5.) Gotten in a car accident? No thank God 6.) Gone over your cell phone bill? what cell phone bill? 7.) Been called a geek/nerd? No 8.) Been overcharged on something you bought? probably 9.) Do you watch College Football?nope, not a big sports fan 10.) Do you have any collections?yeah, I collect horse stuff and doxie stugg 11.) Driven without a license?Nope NINE FACTS 01. Hometown?CHENEY. 02. Natural hair color?dark brown with a red tint 03. Initials?WPO 04. Weight? about 130 05. Eye color:they change colors 06. Height:5'6" 07. Pets:too many to count 08. Mood:just kinda here 09. Last concert you saw? Toby Keith 10. Last alcoholic thing you drank? wine cooler TEN THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE: 01. Have you ever been in love? yeah 02. Do you believe in love? sometimes I wonder 03. Why did your LAST relationship fail? it didn't really fail I just didn't love him 04. Have you ever been heartbroken: yeah 05. Have you ever broke anybody's heart? probably and if I did sorry 06. Have you ever fallen for your best friend?yeah and it sucks 07. Are you afraid of commitment? nope 08. Would you consider online dating?No way 09. Have you had more than 5 different serious relationships in your life? nope 10. do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend now? if so how long? not techinacally but I do like someone a lot and we hug and hold hands...so in a way we are 11. are you "in" love? I think it's too soon to tell 5 EMOTIONS 01. Do you have a headache?NAH.. 02. Are you happy?sorta 03. Are you eating anything?nope 04. What was the last book you read?not sure 05. Do you like someone right now? yeah

So far in '06

1. Have you had any relationships this year?yeah 2. Have you had your birthday? yeah 3. Have you been to church? yeah 4. Been on a diet?yeah and between that and working for Don I lost a pant size 5. Pulled an all nighter? yep 6. Drank Starbucks? Nope 7. Go to Homecoming? yeah 8. Went Camping? yeah on Annie's property...good times, good time 9. Failed a class for the semester? No thank God 10. Bought something? yeah 11. Met someone special? yeah *sigh* 12. Been out of state? yeah for the MONTANA Dog shows 13. Gone Snowboarding? noe (THIS YEAR) 1.) Been in the hospital? yeah, it's called attempted suicide 2.) Had a boyfriend or girlfriend that told you they loved you? yeah but the question is did they mean in, in which the answer is no 3.) Were you on television? nope 4.) Loaned out money? yeah and people never seem to pay me back 5.) Gotten in a car accident? No thank God 6.) Gone over your cell phone bill? what cell phone bill? 7.) Been called a geek/nerd? No 8.) Been overcharged on something you bought? probably 9.) Do you watch College Football?nope, not a big sports fan 10.) Do you have any collections?yeah, I collect horse stuff and doxie stugg 11.) Driven without a license?Nope NINE FACTS 01. Hometown?CHENEY. 02. Natural hair color?dark brown with a red tint 03. Initials?WPO 04. Weight? about 130 05. Eye color:they change colors 06. Height:5'6" 07. Pets:too many to count 08. Mood:just kinda here 09. Last concert you saw? Toby Keith 10. Last alcoholic thing you drank? wine cooler TEN THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE: 01. Have you ever been in love? yeah 02. Do you believe in love? sometimes I wonder 03. Why did your LAST relationship fail? it didn't really fail I just didn't love him 04. Have you ever been heartbroken: yeah 05. Have you ever broke anybody's heart? probably and if I did sorry 06. Have you ever fallen for your best friend?yeah and it sucks 07. Are you afraid of commitment? nope 08. Would you consider online dating?No way 09. Have you had more than 5 different serious relationships in your life? nope 10. do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend now? if so how long? not techinacally but I do like someone a lot and we hug and hold hands...so in a way we are 11. are you "in" love? I think it's too soon to tell 5 EMOTIONS 01. Do you have a headache?NAH.. 02. Are you happy?sorta 03. Are you eating anything?nope 04. What was the last book you read?not sure 05. Do you like someone right now? yeah

Survey

1. What is your Boyfriend/girlfriends name?what boyfriend?
2. What color underwear are you wearing now? rainbow
3. What are you listening to right now?the sound of my computer and the clicking of the keyboard
4. What are the last 4 digits in your phone number?6222
. What was the last thing you ate?Spegetti
6. If you were a crayon what color would you be? Blue
7. How is the weather right now?cold
8. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?tim
9. The first thing you notice about the opposite/preferred sex?smile or lack of, eyes, personality
10. Favorite type of Food?too many to choose
11. Do you drink?not really, an occasionally wine cooler after a hard day at work
12. Do you smoke?nope
13. Ever get so drunk you don't remember what you did?nope
14. Hair color?brown
15. What is your eye color?changes
16. Do you wear contacts?nope, glasses
17. Favorite Holiday?christmas or july 4th
18. Favorite Month?july
19. Have you ever cried for no reason?yah!
22. Are u too shy to ask someone out? depends
23.If you can say something to someone right now what would it be? that they are an arrogant, backstabbing sex craving jack a**
24. Hugs or Kisses?hugs but both are nice
25. Chocolate or Vanilla?chocolate
26. Who is least likely to respond?idk
27. Who is most likely to respond?idk
28. Who do you want to respond?whoever wants to
29. What books are you reading?none right now
30. Piercings?3...for now (all ears) want 4 more (3 ears, 1 tongue)
31. Favorite Movie?any chick flick
32. Favorite football team?not a big fan
33.What were you doing before this?watching tv
34. Any pets?yah
35.Screen name?All I want it to be in your arms
36. Butter popcorn, plain, or salted?butter and salt
37. Dogs or cats?dogs
38. Favorite flower?rose
39. Have you ever been caught doing something you weren't supposed to?idk
40. Are you taken or single?single but crushing
41. Have you ever loved someone?yah
42. Who would you like to see right now?my friends from cheney
43. Are you still friends with your exes?some yeah others no
44. Have you ever fired a gun?no
45. Do you like to travel by plane?yah but not by myself
46. Right-handed or Left-handed?right
where did 47 go?
48. How many pillows do you sleep with?3
50. Do you have a Tattoo?nope but want one

a-z of me

[A is for age] - 17!
[B is for best friend] - Jenn, Ty, Mike...to name a few
[C is for crush] - tim
[D is for favorite drink] - mountain dew
[E is for essential item you use everyday] - watch
[F is for favorite song at the moment] -watching you by Rodney adkins
[G is for favorite game] - i like most card games
[H is for hometown] - cheney, Washington
[I is for instruments you play] - none
[J is for favorite fruit juice] - orange juice
[K is for kids?] - none right now but later i want two or three
[L is for last kiss] - um...a long time ago...like New Year's Eve... I think that was the last time
[M is for marriage] - not right now no
[N is for number of siblings] - 3
[O is for overnight hospital stays] - 1 that I remember
[P is for phobias] - spiders, being hurt emotionally
[Q is for favorite quote] - "i can't pretend to forgive and forget. I'll make the day you met me the day you'll regret." or "Shame on you if you fooled me once, shame on me if you fooled me twice" or "Hair wild and eyes filled with pain" or "stand for something or you'll fall for anything"
[R is for biggest regret] - dating Nash, falling for Tone'
[S is for self confidence] - I have some but not as much as I use to
[T is for time you wake up] - 6:00am week days and 8:30 amweekends
[U is for underwear] - I have some
[V is for vegetable you love] - i like all don't ask me to choose
[W is for worst habit] - falling for the wrong guys
[X is for X-rays you've had] - I don't rememeber I know at least 2 not counting dentist
[Y is for yummy food] - veggies, hotdogs, hamburgers
[Z is for zodiac sign] - cancer