July = attitude

'JULY = ATTITUDE
outgoing personality. takes risks. feeds onattention. no self control. kind hearted. selfconfident. loud and boisterous. VERY revengeful.easy to get along with and talk to. has an "everything's peachy" attitude. likes talking and singing.loves music. daydreamer. easily distracted. Hatesnot being trusted. BIG imagination. loves to beloved. hates studying. in need of "that someone".longs for freedom. rebellious when withheld orrestricted. lives by "no pain no gain" caring.always a suspect. playful. mysterious. "charming"or "beautiful" to everyone. stubborn. curious.independent. strong willed. a fighter. repost in 5mins and you will meet the love of your lifesometime next month.'

For the most part the above is right but it says I take risks...So why am I so afraid to let guys in? Why am I so scared that they will hurt me? I can't believe I fell for every lie Nash told me. If it weren't for him I wouldn't be in this mess! I would be able to really love someone and not worry about if they are gonna hurt me or not. Can I do it? Can I be the girl I was before Nash? I want to but...I think he ruined me. I don't think I can go back to that girl...And it's making me want revenge on him. I know that's not good but I want it badly!!! I want to make him pay for what he did to me!. I wanna know what went wrong...I guess that's what sucks. Since I have gone to counceling I tend to try to figure out everything and see where things went wrong...But, I think Nash was always wrong!!