Scared ...Sinking in

So, it's finally sinking in you guys. This is it, this time next year I will be out on my own. I am scared and nervous. I don't like the idea of it at all. I have to start applying for colleges but I don't know what my profession is gonna be so where do I start? I am thinking about applying to Spokane Falls and Eastern to see if I will get in so I can be close to home...yet have some indepence. *Haha* It's a big deal for me just like this was because I would be on my own. I am very much a family girl as much as I try to fight it and the idea of not having them to run to when the going gets tough absolutely terrifies me.
On the plus side, I am coming home for Thanksgiving...(It seems weird to me to still refer to Cheney as home...Shouldn't Shelton be home now?)
So, I am really nervous because a guy I like seems to be interested. But, I have some things that are keeping me back. The biggest he lives in Cheney and I live here. Also, I liked him last year and he wasn't interested so why now? Why when I moved across state does he take notice? Is he just messing with my mind. I think so, I want to take the chance but Nash has worped my mind so much that I don't know if I could take the chance. I don't want to get hurt and I am afraid that will happen. Is there a way to protect my heart and still let him in?
Thanks for listening/reading and some advice would be appricated.
~Whit